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Apart from the Ocean part 9
And here's part 9 of "Apart from the Ocean".
Title: Apart from the Ocean (part 9)
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estirose
Fandom: Kamen Rider Kiva
Words: ~1000
Characters: Shinoda Aya (OC), Kuramae Noboru (OC)
Warnings/Rating: 13+/PG-13
Prompt: Table 2, prompt: Vacation
Summary: Aya has to live with the fact that monsters don't think like humans.
Author's Notes: I'm hoping to use as many of the 25 prompts as I can for one story, and am therefore designating parts as I go along. Any left over prompts will be used as snapshots on Aya's life. Since the characters are Japanese, I've used Japanese name order here. The universe itself belongs to Toei and TV-Asahi, as does the original version of Kuramae Noboru.
Kuramae-san took her out into the gardens outside the research facility after the technicians fitted her with a GPS locator anklet. There was a picnic table there, and he put the picnic basket on the table, smiling all the while. “We won't be disturbed here,” he said, “Though if something happens, there's a manual alarm button on your locator anklet to summon security.”
Which meant if he was more presumptuous than she thought he was, she could get some help for herself, too. Good to know, and not only for that purpose. It was something she could work into her plan for escaping in the future, when they relaxed their collective guards. In the meantime, it was like a vacation from the facility, at least.
They ate, and she enjoyed breathing fresh air. She thought of how much she had taken being outdoors for granted when she'd lived in Hiroshima and Tokyo. She took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and thought of how nice it would be to swim in the actual ocean once more. The water in her little 'pool' was okay, but it had more boundaries than the ocean did. She felt the same way about swimming pools, she realized, though the pool in the facility was more welcome because the water was pure, more or less.
She opened her eyes. “Thinking of the ocean?” Kuramae-san asked gently.
“I think I always do,” Aya admitted.
“You're a Merman; you should,” Kuramae-san said.
“Half-human,” Aya corrected. “Raised human.”
“Raised human, less than half,” Kuramae-san corrected her. “What do you think of the Fangaire?”
Aya blinked at the change in subject. “I've only ever met one Fangaire,” she said. “Dr. Hamagaki. I'm hardly going to judge the actions of an entire species on a medical doctor who's got me captive.”
“Why not?” Kuramae-san said. “You judged your father's species on the strength of knowing your teenaged father.”
“One hundred twenty something is not a teenager to me,” Aya said.
“It is by Merman standards,” Kuramae-san said. “You're letting your personal experience get in the way of what you know by your research.”
Aya took a deep breath. “My research doesn't paint them in a much more positive light,” she said. “These are people who abandoned their kids because they were half a 'lesser' species."
Kuramae-san shifted uncomfortably. "Somewhere along the way, we'll have to fix that."
"In the meantime," Aya said, "I don't have anything on this world's Fangaire, but I do on my world's Merman Clan. And I do know that it's a culture that would have considered me a lesser being. In fact, considered me a human. Which I don't have a problem with, but it's the same attitude which told my father it's okay to rape my mother. What you guys don't seem to get is that I don't want to continue either the Merman Clan or the Merman cultural tradition. I want to go back to being Aya again."
"Aya... Shinoda-san... we don't want to continue the cultural traditions of either our Merman Clan or yours," Kuramae-san said. "We want your bloodlines. We want to start a new Merman Clan, one that has greater respect for humans and doesn't kill them."
"I don't care, I don't want to be a mother," Aya said, staring at him and hoping he'd get the message. "Besides, you have my father."
"But we don't have your mother," Kuramae-san said. "We don't have your mother's genes, except through you."
"My mother would be excessively happy not to become a grandmother, especially if she knew about the fact she has Merman lineage. That's how badly encountering my father scarred her." She wondered if he ever would get it, if the researchers in the place would ever get that there was no way in hell that she was willing to have a child. They might force a child on her, but she would not willingly carry it.
"Oh," Kuramae-san said, sounding disconcerted. Maybe he was getting the message, finally. "Your encounter with your father, then...."
"Damaged me, and damaged my mother," Aya said firmly. "My mother probably should have aborted me, I don't know why she didn't, but she didn't. And it gave her a lifetime of pain. She didn't tell me what had happened until we met my father again, she wanted to shield me from the truth." Aya looked towards the ocean. "And then my father showed up, wanting to make me leave the human world for his own, and I couldn't stand it. To carry a child, knowing its heritage... I couldn't do that."
"Shinoda-san," Kuramae-san said. "Your goals and ours are in some ways the same; we want the Merman Clan to be able to live among humans, to be as beloved as the Fangaire. We want to spare future generations the same trauma you and your mother went through."
"I'm already damaged," Aya said. "Send me home."
"Shinoda-san," Kuramae-san said patiently. "You are not damaged - at least as much as you think. We here see you as a beautiful being who doesn't see her own beauty. You might not have any children - and I'll get through to Dr. Hamagaki that you shouldn't - but you know what the Merman Clan did, and what it was capable of doing. What it did wrong. If we could fix some things like your lifespan, you could be there to teach future generations how not to do things."
"That would make me more Merman," Aya said flatly.
"That would make you more *you*," Kuramae-san said. "Somebody should set things right. Why shouldn't it be you? Maybe that's what you were born to do."
Aya rather doubted it, but said nothing.
Title: Apart from the Ocean (part 9)
Author:
estiroseFandom: Kamen Rider Kiva
Words: ~1000
Characters: Shinoda Aya (OC), Kuramae Noboru (OC)
Warnings/Rating: 13+/PG-13
Prompt: Table 2, prompt: Vacation
Summary: Aya has to live with the fact that monsters don't think like humans.
Author's Notes: I'm hoping to use as many of the 25 prompts as I can for one story, and am therefore designating parts as I go along. Any left over prompts will be used as snapshots on Aya's life. Since the characters are Japanese, I've used Japanese name order here. The universe itself belongs to Toei and TV-Asahi, as does the original version of Kuramae Noboru.
Kuramae-san took her out into the gardens outside the research facility after the technicians fitted her with a GPS locator anklet. There was a picnic table there, and he put the picnic basket on the table, smiling all the while. “We won't be disturbed here,” he said, “Though if something happens, there's a manual alarm button on your locator anklet to summon security.”
Which meant if he was more presumptuous than she thought he was, she could get some help for herself, too. Good to know, and not only for that purpose. It was something she could work into her plan for escaping in the future, when they relaxed their collective guards. In the meantime, it was like a vacation from the facility, at least.
They ate, and she enjoyed breathing fresh air. She thought of how much she had taken being outdoors for granted when she'd lived in Hiroshima and Tokyo. She took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and thought of how nice it would be to swim in the actual ocean once more. The water in her little 'pool' was okay, but it had more boundaries than the ocean did. She felt the same way about swimming pools, she realized, though the pool in the facility was more welcome because the water was pure, more or less.
She opened her eyes. “Thinking of the ocean?” Kuramae-san asked gently.
“I think I always do,” Aya admitted.
“You're a Merman; you should,” Kuramae-san said.
“Half-human,” Aya corrected. “Raised human.”
“Raised human, less than half,” Kuramae-san corrected her. “What do you think of the Fangaire?”
Aya blinked at the change in subject. “I've only ever met one Fangaire,” she said. “Dr. Hamagaki. I'm hardly going to judge the actions of an entire species on a medical doctor who's got me captive.”
“Why not?” Kuramae-san said. “You judged your father's species on the strength of knowing your teenaged father.”
“One hundred twenty something is not a teenager to me,” Aya said.
“It is by Merman standards,” Kuramae-san said. “You're letting your personal experience get in the way of what you know by your research.”
Aya took a deep breath. “My research doesn't paint them in a much more positive light,” she said. “These are people who abandoned their kids because they were half a 'lesser' species."
Kuramae-san shifted uncomfortably. "Somewhere along the way, we'll have to fix that."
"In the meantime," Aya said, "I don't have anything on this world's Fangaire, but I do on my world's Merman Clan. And I do know that it's a culture that would have considered me a lesser being. In fact, considered me a human. Which I don't have a problem with, but it's the same attitude which told my father it's okay to rape my mother. What you guys don't seem to get is that I don't want to continue either the Merman Clan or the Merman cultural tradition. I want to go back to being Aya again."
"Aya... Shinoda-san... we don't want to continue the cultural traditions of either our Merman Clan or yours," Kuramae-san said. "We want your bloodlines. We want to start a new Merman Clan, one that has greater respect for humans and doesn't kill them."
"I don't care, I don't want to be a mother," Aya said, staring at him and hoping he'd get the message. "Besides, you have my father."
"But we don't have your mother," Kuramae-san said. "We don't have your mother's genes, except through you."
"My mother would be excessively happy not to become a grandmother, especially if she knew about the fact she has Merman lineage. That's how badly encountering my father scarred her." She wondered if he ever would get it, if the researchers in the place would ever get that there was no way in hell that she was willing to have a child. They might force a child on her, but she would not willingly carry it.
"Oh," Kuramae-san said, sounding disconcerted. Maybe he was getting the message, finally. "Your encounter with your father, then...."
"Damaged me, and damaged my mother," Aya said firmly. "My mother probably should have aborted me, I don't know why she didn't, but she didn't. And it gave her a lifetime of pain. She didn't tell me what had happened until we met my father again, she wanted to shield me from the truth." Aya looked towards the ocean. "And then my father showed up, wanting to make me leave the human world for his own, and I couldn't stand it. To carry a child, knowing its heritage... I couldn't do that."
"Shinoda-san," Kuramae-san said. "Your goals and ours are in some ways the same; we want the Merman Clan to be able to live among humans, to be as beloved as the Fangaire. We want to spare future generations the same trauma you and your mother went through."
"I'm already damaged," Aya said. "Send me home."
"Shinoda-san," Kuramae-san said patiently. "You are not damaged - at least as much as you think. We here see you as a beautiful being who doesn't see her own beauty. You might not have any children - and I'll get through to Dr. Hamagaki that you shouldn't - but you know what the Merman Clan did, and what it was capable of doing. What it did wrong. If we could fix some things like your lifespan, you could be there to teach future generations how not to do things."
"That would make me more Merman," Aya said flatly.
"That would make you more *you*," Kuramae-san said. "Somebody should set things right. Why shouldn't it be you? Maybe that's what you were born to do."
Aya rather doubted it, but said nothing.