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estiroseOkay, I've got two organized fandom/fanfic efforts I'm interested in that have come up as of the last day or two. One is that gaming big bang; Finish-a-thon also has started up, and I make an effort to participate in it every year I can. (I've also got Remix Redux, but that's already assigned and not an issue.) I like organized efforts because I can write to a deadline, which is often what I need if the muses don't automatically swarm all over something.
The problem is, that unless I'm writing something fandom-specific (I'm looking forward to PR Remix if it happens this year, though I know that RL always trumps fandom/online, so if it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen), I tend to write obscure little fandoms and/or kids' fandoms that don't quite fit in.
I had that bad experience in the last big bang I was in (writing was fine; never did find an artist). And I love the hell out of finish-a-thon, but my plot bunnies for the last few years have been in Kamen Rider Kiva or other Kamen Rider series, and that's not something that do voting know how to deal with. It's giving me a lot of chances to work on my summary skills (because so few of the voters will have heard of the damn thing), but I know that I'm about the only tokusatsu author participating. My other in-progress stuff tends to be Power Rangers, which is more well-known, but I think people tend to shy away from it. Admittedly, the first few years a lot of the people on there wrote in Blake's 7, which is pretty obscure itself, but they had the luck of having other people that were familiar with it. (I'm considering doing a Final Fantasy II fic for either the big bang or finishathon or both, but that's so rare that if it has twenty fics on fanfiction.net, I'll be very surprised.)
And even when I'm not writing something as obscure as I have been, I have to admit that sometimes I write some pretty odd stuff. This year's theme seems to be playing with tropes; I played with the "character gets turned into a kid" trope in "Painful is the Second Time Around" and I'm currently playing with the whole "mpreg"/"Mr. Seahorse" trope in "Terolalaine". In both cases, I'm not exactly doing the standard storyline; the character turned into a kid in "Painful" never gets miraculously returned to their normal age and has to grow up again (and does so into a completely different person, much to the frustration of his male lover), and the guy who can get pregnant in "Terolalaine" is... not going to get pregnant. He doesn't want to be pregnant. There is very, very, very good reason for him not to get pregnant!
I also write some things that others might consider a little bit squicky. Or more than a little bit squicky. I have a bad tendency to slash Taiga and Wataru; as people who watch Kamen Rider Kiva know, this is not only slash, but incest, since they're half-brothers. There's the whole mpreg trope that I've apparently tackled twice; once in "Terolalaine" and once in an unfinished-and-never-to-be-finished semi-explicit semi-genderbend Kamen Rider Kiva fic. (I did mention I write odd and obscure, right?) I know everybody has kinks; I'm just reserved enough that I'm not always so keen on admitting I have them.
Of course, I realize that some of this is just my perception of things; I do tend towards depression and anxiety. (This is why the whole "Harder To Be Brave" storyline comes out fairly realistic; it's not just the sources that I cited that I'm drawing from.) And I take heart in the fact that my remixer for Remix Redux last year had, if anything, a lot of good fic to choose from, and I hope my remixer this year found the same. (I am so going to laugh if I end up with a Kamen Rider Kabuto fic, because I had something along the lines of a 99% chance that someone would match me on Power Rangers.)
I just find it hard not to wibble and hope that this year, if I do this big bang, if I do finish-a-thon, that I won't feel like the person whose taste in fanfiction is so obscure/strange that I'm the odd person out.
The problem is, that unless I'm writing something fandom-specific (I'm looking forward to PR Remix if it happens this year, though I know that RL always trumps fandom/online, so if it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen), I tend to write obscure little fandoms and/or kids' fandoms that don't quite fit in.
I had that bad experience in the last big bang I was in (writing was fine; never did find an artist). And I love the hell out of finish-a-thon, but my plot bunnies for the last few years have been in Kamen Rider Kiva or other Kamen Rider series, and that's not something that do voting know how to deal with. It's giving me a lot of chances to work on my summary skills (because so few of the voters will have heard of the damn thing), but I know that I'm about the only tokusatsu author participating. My other in-progress stuff tends to be Power Rangers, which is more well-known, but I think people tend to shy away from it. Admittedly, the first few years a lot of the people on there wrote in Blake's 7, which is pretty obscure itself, but they had the luck of having other people that were familiar with it. (I'm considering doing a Final Fantasy II fic for either the big bang or finishathon or both, but that's so rare that if it has twenty fics on fanfiction.net, I'll be very surprised.)
And even when I'm not writing something as obscure as I have been, I have to admit that sometimes I write some pretty odd stuff. This year's theme seems to be playing with tropes; I played with the "character gets turned into a kid" trope in "Painful is the Second Time Around" and I'm currently playing with the whole "mpreg"/"Mr. Seahorse" trope in "Terolalaine". In both cases, I'm not exactly doing the standard storyline; the character turned into a kid in "Painful" never gets miraculously returned to their normal age and has to grow up again (and does so into a completely different person, much to the frustration of his male lover), and the guy who can get pregnant in "Terolalaine" is... not going to get pregnant. He doesn't want to be pregnant. There is very, very, very good reason for him not to get pregnant!
I also write some things that others might consider a little bit squicky. Or more than a little bit squicky. I have a bad tendency to slash Taiga and Wataru; as people who watch Kamen Rider Kiva know, this is not only slash, but incest, since they're half-brothers. There's the whole mpreg trope that I've apparently tackled twice; once in "Terolalaine" and once in an unfinished-and-never-to-be-finished semi-explicit semi-genderbend Kamen Rider Kiva fic. (I did mention I write odd and obscure, right?) I know everybody has kinks; I'm just reserved enough that I'm not always so keen on admitting I have them.
Of course, I realize that some of this is just my perception of things; I do tend towards depression and anxiety. (This is why the whole "Harder To Be Brave" storyline comes out fairly realistic; it's not just the sources that I cited that I'm drawing from.) And I take heart in the fact that my remixer for Remix Redux last year had, if anything, a lot of good fic to choose from, and I hope my remixer this year found the same. (I am so going to laugh if I end up with a Kamen Rider Kabuto fic, because I had something along the lines of a 99% chance that someone would match me on Power Rangers.)
I just find it hard not to wibble and hope that this year, if I do this big bang, if I do finish-a-thon, that I won't feel like the person whose taste in fanfiction is so obscure/strange that I'm the odd person out.
